On my own..... or am I?
This morning I woke up at 4am. It’s 7am now, so the chances of me getting back to sleep are pretty much zero. When I have these stints of insomnia I lay awake questioning things and getting anxiety. I’ve been on Facebook for the past 2 hours and it’s led me to be thinking a lot about what I might be missing out on, or have unintentionally abandoned.... there was a big Arab show on yesterday and I had no clue! That didn’t used to happen! I see people going out and enjoying themselves and realise I just never get invited, am I just really disliked and boring? Or have I turned into one of those boring people that is now just a mum? Boring, slightly tubby, unglamorous, never has any money to buy new clothes, wears the same pair of converse everyday (they are comfortable!).... a ‘probably wouldn’t come if she was invited anyway’ type?
After a conversation with a bunch of girls the other day, I realise that keeping in touch with people ‘because you see them on Facebook’ isn’t the same as actually having a conversation. It’s deffo something I need to work on if I’m not going to be seen as someone whose kids have taken over their life (mine have, kids do!)!!
Anyway, I was out with E at an audition ALL DAY yesterday, from 10am to 5pm... I knew some people there, but they left after a while. I wish they had stayed so I didn’t have to drink Prosecco on my own. Still, I did have at least 8 WhatsApp conversations going, all from people supporting E and asking for updates.
You’re never really alone when your a dance mum.
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