//Before you make that call i will tell you something. This is your age for persistence and patience. Decisions you make at this age will show up far too late in time. But don't let it discourage you. You’re young, free and full of energy. Listen to your heart and don't be fooled by the surface. And stop taking that detour everyday, it won't work out, ever. Keep up the writing, you will only remember pieces.
You will meet a lot of interesting people with ranging characters. It's not always necessary to be on good terms with everyone. It's alright. Get the best out of it and move on. In time you will have to confront your friends. It took you too long to cut loose. But you did, you stood up. Having an opinion, a mind of your own, is not that ugly dude. You will start loving it, that's probably your best decision ever.
You will keep landing in hot waters and making boring miserable lives interesting. It's just you, you can't help it. But you will never run out of luck and your brothers.
When you love, love with all your heart.
Your older self.