It’s so easy to get caught up in a lack mentality. Especially when we are in the thick of something heavy.
We can spiral downward into thoughts that honestly, do nothing for us. That’s not to say we shouldn’t own all of our feelings. We should. 100 % or that stuff will haunt you and keep you repeating the same negative patterns in your life. Otherwise, you’re just spiritually bypassing.
But I was sitting here after a Pilates class at @pilates.republic in town, eating my breakfast, looking at my tarot spread for the day and I looked up. My heart skipped and I smiled. “Holy Balls Amanda! YOU created THIS! This life. A life that looks VERY similar to the one you use to dream of.” And it hit me...five years ago I was just about to find the courage to leave a super shitty marriage, walk away with almost nothing, move in with my brother’s family (SO GRATEFUL FOR YOU GUYS!!!) and hit a frigging wall so hard I was paralyzed (emotionally) for 7 months until I got the ping to move to a little town called Encinitas.
I moved here knowing 2 people and with nothing but furniture for my bedroom and although it hasn’t all been easy, I look back and realize that I use to lay awake at night in a loveless marriage praying for this life... I invite you, no matter what you are going through, to find something today YOU created and smile at life and just say thank you.
Your life could literally look 100% different this time next year because you kept following your gut and saying yes 😉