*Potential trigger warning*
Today I was told that my BMI is too high. I'm almost alright with it, although I can hear the little ED me evil laughing.
Today I also did something I never would've done under the control of my ED. I stood up, in front of people, on camera (jiggly bits and all) and smiled.
I guess what I want to say is, M, it's not always bad. It's a little scary sometimes... but that's ok. It's a little frustrating and upsetting and overwhelming sometimes too, but I'm learning to be strong through it.
Darling, I'm learning that inflicting pain on yourself, however small, is never just a 'small price to pay to maintain perfection' because perfection isn't measured by your height or weight, in numbers or figures, what you look like or how you dress. Perfection is a feeling, an experience. A magical, amazing, incredible feeling. And anyone can have it.