The day you stop apologizing for who you are is the day your life gets a pinch more brilliant.
Really. How often do you hold yourself back because you’re worried about being too much? Or too little?
You’re not too much. You’re not too little. You’re enough, and you’re where you should be.
Last year was a struggle for me. I was sifting through the emotions of a breakup that ended poorly.
I blamed myself for everything and didn’t think I deserved anything.
Of course, those beliefs bled into other aspects of my life.
It wasn’t uncommon for me to have $12 in my bank account after paying bills and eating.
I couch surfed, watched houses, walked more dogs than I knew existed, and babysat little humans.
I felt like a huge disappointment to my family and friends.
I felt worthless.
During this period, I tried to be transparent, but sometimes pretending felt easier.
It took my own safety being threatened by another person to finally wake up and remember that I wanted to fucking live, not just survive.
So I spoke up about what I wanted. What I deserved and needed. I dropped the guilt I’d been carrying and redirected my energy to being there for others.
Sure enough, more work began trickling in. More incredible people crossed my path.
More opportunities. More confidence. More love.
This stuff requires maintenance, but it’s so worth it.
If you were one of the many humans who was there for me and pushed me, thank you.
If you read this far, also thank you.
You’re all wonderful and I need to stop typing.