Over the last couple of month I have received a lot of questions regarding themes as selfdoubt, search for perfection, fear of clientwork etc. from other designers - both upcoming juniors, but also really talented and settled designers... We as artists or designers are creative human beings, and most of the time that goes hand in hand with being a vulnerable soul. This totally clashes with our field, where we are constantly critiqued by bosses, teachers, co-workers and finger-pointing-know-it-alls.
This is why I have such an admiration of the community on instagram, a place with passionated and kind fellowmen who encourage and motivates each other. I want to give back and has decided to make more content of me sharing out some of my experiences, thoughts and challenges, that I had and has to deal with, in my creative work.
This is the reason that I want to share this story, of me, a young and unknown designer, getting approached to make logo suggestions for one of the biggest TV networks in the
world and what feelings I went through doing this process.
For about one and a half year ago I was approached by a higly rated agency. They wanted me to join their team on a project where they were to pitch a new brand identity for my favourite channel growing up, Animal Planet. I were to make a variety of logo concepts for their pitch.
When I was approached I honestly could not believe it. At the time I were only doing design on the side, and I had only been doing it about a year or so. The instant joyment over this email and the chance it presented itself with, was soon taken over by a sudden fear. I had always suffered from what I later found out to be, imposter syndrome - a fear of being seen through and exposed as a fraud. I had always have that inncer voice questioning every good thing that came my way. "Surely they could have found someone better? This is without a doubt just pure luck, huh? Tell them the true, that you aren't really qualified". This was the type of things my selfdoubt would blast out. And this wasn't only a one time thing - it happened everytime a client reached out - no matter the size. (1/2)