Reposting this today as with the upcoming time of year it can be difficult. Here’s a reminder if you need it... it’s okay if it all gets too much, some days it will. It’s okay to angry, frustrated, sad and lost, your illness has taken so much. You will have days, weeks, maybe months where you grieve, mourn and hate your illness for what it has done. Don’t fight that, work through it. You will spend hours, days and weeks trying to understand the pain. Your heart will break over all the things you are missing out on, or have had to cancel and the punishment you get for trying to live like them. You have been left vulnerable, you have been made to feel inadequate.
You have lost a lot, but I also guarantee you will have gained in the chaos of it all. You will give it all you can day in day out and feel like it’s not getting you anywhere and so then, it feels like it’s time to give up…
But, you won’t. There is a strong resilient voice within you, you have battled so much, resilience runs in your veins. You have found strength you didn’t know you had. Courage to speak up for yourself when no one else would.
Your heart has not hardened, it has grown bigger and your compassion has multiplied and multiplied. All those wounds you’re trying to stitch up have helped you gain so much wisdom, not the type to be found in books but, the wisdom only your heart only knows. Your illness may feel like a curse, it has tried to hold you back, push you down, defeat you and given so much loss, struggle, letdowns, trails and hardship, but here you are, forging on and learning to love yourself. This illness has forced to growth and pushed beyond your limits, but your dedication and determination will not be for nothing. You will rise from the ashes and rebuild with time. It might not be what or you expected but you will. And I understand if that right now you don’t care for all those things, and that’s okay too. Don’t feel bad or compare because you aren’t in the same place as everyone whether that’s emotionally, career wise or relationship wise. Just keep in mind for a later time the treasures you have grown within you despite the battle are your greatest achievements. 💎🌱🦋🍷🍸