"Project Restart" - I was in London last night for the New Year's Eve fireworks, but I chose not to bring my camera and just welcome 2019 with my very own eyes. It was a liberating feeling, that kind of bitter-sweet emotion of letting something go and looking forward to a new beginning.
It took me months of reflection, but it was a very hard decision to put my camera to rest for now and focus on other things that I want to achieve in life. Photography has always been my outlet to express my emotions, my only companion in times of stress and loneliness. But years of taking photos and being well known for it also made me overly concerned about the images I post, of me trying to make sure the photos look good in quality and technicality. The expectations became higher that I sometimes post photos just for the sake of it, to gain more followers and keep the cycle going. And whenever I travel lately, I am so conscious of getting the framing right instead of just living the moment. It is no longer the kind of photography that I was once passionate about.
My very few close friends would know that as an introvert, I am not really a person who values social recognition that much. As dramatic as it may sound, I would prefer to share a part of my soul through the photos I take, and hoping that one day, at least one person would be inspired to explore the world, go on with life and, who knows, meet me halfway (and maybe give me a hug?). That, I believe, is why I started photography in the first place. So for this year when I'm turning 33, I am restarting my account (with a new account name because I'm no longer a boy!), a year-long look back on photos that truly made me happy or sad, blessed or broken-hearted, but otherwise, alive. It is a postcard project, a letter to unknown, an ode to solitude, a poetry to soul searching. Finally, the boy in me is now leaving.
Have a lovely 2019, everyone!
P. S. This sunrise shot I took last September in Albay, Philippines is the last photo that brought peace to my soul last year. It is an image that made me miss home, but also an image that brings hope for better mornings. Indeed, we all deserve a reason to wake up and breathe.