Body image...The truth! .
This photo was taken when I was 17/18 and the slimest I have been, yet I remember feeling miserable about my body image. If I ever drank alcohol I would get super depressed and think everyone around me was so much slimmer and more attractive than me. .
I am now much heavier and in a bigger clothes size, but I am much happier about my body image now than I was then. Why, I asked myself?
It's because I have learned to appreciate my body for what it is now, right now in this moment. Don't get me wrong, there are still parts of my body that I want to work on and change, but I view that in a totally different way than I would of back then and even 18 months ago. .
When I was at my biggest I was in total denial. I would avoid looking in the mirror, avoid clothes shopping and only wear elastic waisted clothes. If I pretended it wasn't an issue then it couldn't hurt me! The problem was, underneath that fake exterior it was hurting me and whenever I was in a situation I couldn't avoid and we had to dress up to go out, I was quickly reminded about how 'ugly' I was. .
The truth is I have never been ugly, but how I viewed myself has at times been very ugly.
So what changed? I became part of a wonderful family of supportive women, led by @lyndsaysherwin who helped me to a)look at my body as it was then and accept where I was at and b)appreciate the good parts and what it has done for me and then c) love it enough to lead a healthier lifestyle of good nutrition (most of the time) and exercise. .
So I urge you...Stop striving to be the skinniest or the lightest. Start working on loving your body and the rest will come, because the reality is the answer is not in the dress size or the scales, it's in your head! .
The first step being to bear all and look in the mirror...really look hard and start finding GOOD about your body, it's there I promise x