I know it seems like things will never get better. And I know that you feel like stuck in your current situation. Life has seemed like more of a battle than a blessing lately, and every time you finally seem to make a breakthrough, like only seems to knock you back down. These are the days that can either destroy you or define you, and it is up to you to decide which path you take.
I hope you don't let it destroy you.
I hope you get back up every time the world expects you to just give up and stay stationary. I hope you never feel like you won't get any further than you are right now because you have no idea how much more you will grow in just few short years.
Today may not be you best day, and tomorrow might not be either, but one day, you will wake up and realize this is the beginning of everything you have ever wanted.
Please don't give up on your dreams and the life you always wanted for one that feels comfortable or seems like what you deserve. You do not deserve the horrible things that you think you do, and I hope one day you can truly believe that. Know that if you choose to stay exactly where you are, you will never know how far you could have gone.