I used to give myself all kinds of shit for being a 'lazy employee' and would constantly ask myself 'why are you so lazy and distracted?' 'Why do I have to be at this meeting? Why do I have to be here in this location at all?'
After reading books on books I started to realize I'm not an employee minded individual. I'm entrepreneurial minded. I don't want to be told what to do, I don't want to work 100 hours a week for a pat on the back and a Mcdonalds gift card.
I used to struggle daily with asking myself how can you be so adamant about not being an employee but help so many people get jobs? The answer, not everyone is like me. Some people want to work at the big 4, some want to work as a game dev, some want to be freelance. And that is 100% ok. Some people need security. Some people actually 100% align with what the company they work for is doing. I've yet to find that.
I've yet to find a job that fulfills me to the point of feeling like purpose. I've yet to find a job that lets you decide how much you get paid, when and how you work, and the tasks you do. So I had to create my own.
There is no road map for what I'm doing, there is no one over my shoulder telling me what to do to be successful, or that this will fail. I just do things, over and over and over. And that's what separates me. Win or lose, I just keep going. You can do the same, no matter what it is. Just keep going. Don't stay in preparation mode. You don't need a perfect idea of what you're going to do, all you need is the why. The rest fills itself in.