I sometimes feel like the most uninspired so-called ‘creative’ out there. Truth be told I lack a lot of confidence in my ability to create anything visually appealing, whether that be in the way of an image or film. A lot of the time I take a look at the photos I’ve snapped and edited with an extremely critical, and what I perceive to be frankly honest, gaze. I’ve been feeling uninspired ever since I stopped doing the one activity which paved the way for my OG username. It seems like my output as a confident creative took a steep decline when I stopped climbing cranes – I’m a fraud.
Crane climbing was this elusive esoteric activity, a landscape novelty, that I’d been using in order to create this perception that I’m edgy, cool and artsy. My first academic year as a film student, as well as in my independent projects, rendered me extremely…lethargic? Trying to force creativity is quite possibly the most mentally exhausting activity you could ever commit to. In the spirit of honesty and transparency, though it didn’t take over my life, I ended up quite artistically depressed (cue violins). It lasted for what seemed like eternity. When the academic year ended I didn’t pick up my camera at all. It’s been gathering dust on my desk. I started to consider whether anything within the visual arts field was right for me. That was until I gazed up at the night sky one warm summer evening.
The moon was shining softly, it’s beautiful face clear as day. I picked up my phone and took a photo, took to light room and then just ten minutes later…wow.
I’ve wasted so much time. The day after – a short stroll along the canal. London living and breathing from East to West, so many things to see, so many things to take in, so much to document. Hold on…document…Document THAT’S IT!
Who cares how artsy something is. Who cares how complex content is. Content should be for contents sake. For the sake of documentation. For the sake of history, whether on a personal or grand scale. It should be to feed one’s soul, not to seek to appeal to others. [CONTINUED IN COMMENTS]