As I sit here editing my photos for the thousandth time wondering if the hues are too saturated and if it will be too stark against my theme I started to think back to how crazy I was about stuff like that. And posts like these would never make the cut for my rigorous posting mill. Daily posts, hourly updates, Schedules and honestly the demise of a lot of my creativity in general. Such a strange thought to think a place that is built around creativity was robbing me of mine. Exhausted by pushing content and engagement I felt myself slipping down into someone I didn’t recognize. It wasn’t actually until I met up with a friend after a very long time, filled her in on my uncertainties, my heartaches, the in betweens of life I realized I wasn’t doing right by me. She said something along the lines of “I would have never known, you always seem like you’re having a blast” and it struck a chord and was what prompted me to take a step back. I tried so hard for my platform to encourage positivity, but it began to mean I was cutting out half of my life, so I had to question my intentions hard. Was I really enjoying and living my life or was I doing things strictly for others to see I’m having fun, and if I was then was it really worth it? (I totally did this btw; fomo) To think that a place was once a home is now just a place to go when the rest of my responsibilities don’t take over. It’s such a contrast from who I was a year ago, trying to string together pretty words that were easy on the tongue and heart. Nowadays, I’m happy sharing the bare minimum here, and on my own schedule (meaning whenever the hell I want tbh). Anyways potato thoughts were just laid out here not to preach, seriously. If what you post brings you joy and sparks something within you then do that. but make sure you check in with yourself when your heart says otherwise.